Yesterday I picked up my MRI scans from the Radiologist after college. I had had a full spinal and brain scan done over two days a few weeks ago. They are a part of a routine check up of my health since I collapsed in 2007 and the last scan I had at this centre was in March 2008.
I love looking at my x rays and scans and they now put them on a handy DVD which allows you to look at them on the computer…fascinating. And yes for the curious… It does show clearly that I do in fact have a brain.
Tomorrow I have an appointment with the rehab specialist who will explain them to me… because while I can have a sticky beak… in reality I have no idea what I’m really looking at. However the report does say that the is some degenerative spinal disease of the lumbar and a few of small white lesions in the left side of the Periventricular and Pericallosal regions of the brain – between 3 and 6 mm in diameter…the previous scan only showed the larger one, last time.
So – this led me to doing a couple of hours research into what those terms meant and where in the brain they were situated. It was a great way to procrastinate and kill a few hours … though in reality I was going to use that time for my assignment – which I will get onto soon.
Am I worried about this… nahh not really. Though the lesions are indicators of MS… I have been basically cleared from having this disease…and though the timing of being told by the specialist that she thought I had it in 2009 was terrible; for I had to sit for a Greek exam 2 hours afterwards…. We have since ruled it out…though of course it could still be diagnosed. Over the last 4 years I have learnt many lessons about life.
Life is meant to be lived. And true living means that we face up to and experience fully all that life gives us. We should cry when we are hurt. For it is only through the tears and pain that we can fully experience that hurt and we should rightfully allow ourselves and others to experience that hurt. We laugh when we are happy…for it is only through laughter that we can experience the fullness of that joy. True living means that we are not frightened to experience our emotions and feelings…and true living also means an engagement with our minds as well as with our God. God tells us he is in control…which gives us the ability to relax and take in the moment.
Sometimes we can be well meaning in our attempt to stop another’s tears. In reality though; we are shutting that person down from true life and truly experiencing what life has to offer at that point in time. Scripture tells us that there is a time for every thing and so within these seasons of time…we can truly experience life.
1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.